Saying goodbye is hard.

I consider myself a very lucky person.  I still have 3 living grandparents I have been able to know all of my great grandparents on some level, even if it was not for a long time.  With saying that I am very sad to have to lay my last living grand parent to rest.  Last night my great grandmother passed away, like I said I am very lucky to have had her in my life until my mid 20's.  The picture above is Michael and I at Christmas this year with her, I am going to miss that.  Unfortunately I don't know much about my great grandmother, but I do know that she was a caring woman, she raised 7 children, owned cafe, and was a politicians wife.  My great grandfather was the Justice of the Peace for Kyle for many years.  I know that my great grandma holt was the "kissing bandit" because she would like to give everyone kisses when they came around.  I warned Michael about it when we first starting dating, and he lovingly always gave her several kisses when we were around her.  Also I know that she very much enjoyed the company of Michael's grandmother that we brought around to family gatherings.  They were close in age and would sit together and gaggle like little school girls.  If makes me happy knowing that I was able to give her a friend to talk to even for a short time, I am going to be sad when I have to tell Michael's grandmother.

Last night on the way to the hospital to see my family Michael was recounting a memory that he has of Great Grandma Holt and I think he needs to be shared.  He said at either this Christmas or her birthday he walked in to give her a hug and kiss and she kissed him on one cheek, well he jokingly told her to even it out and kiss him on the other cheek.  Of course Grandma agreed after all she loved her kisses.  Later on that evening when we were leaving Michael went back to tell Grandma bye and she kissed him on the cheek, well he teased her again that she needed to even it out.  Grandma told him he was greedy and Michael said she had to help him out he would be walking lopsided if she didn't kiss him on the other cheek, well Grandma gave him another kiss (we all know that she would).  Laughingly Michael told her he bet he could get another one, and sure enough the "Kissing Bandit" puckered up and gave Michael a big kiss on his cheek.  So my husband got 5 kisses from Grandma that night, I think it might be a record who knows.  I laughed and told Michael between Grandma Holt's kisses and Ashlyn telling me Michael was going to marry her I'm a lucky woman that he even married me.  I mean I had some hard competition.  I am going to miss walking in to wherever Grandma was and the first thing that you do is go and give her a kiss.  Those small moments are something that I am going to cherish, and feel so lucky to have had for as long as I did.

It was very strange last night going to the hospital, I kept telling myself I was going to go in and give Grandma a hug and kiss and everything was going to be okay, but sadly that was not the case.  However I was and we are all very lucky to have such a large family and last night I think how we all were is how Grandma would have wanted it.  The family that was able to all went over to her house and we just sat and talked and laughed, and cried.  I believe that is how Grandma wants us to be she wants us to mourn the loss of such a loving woman, but remember all the sweet memories that we have with her, and to share that as a family and to laugh together and love together.

I am very sad to have lost my great grandmother but I know that she lived a fullfilled life and I know that we are so very lucky to have had her with us as long as we did.  I am sure that she is enjoying being with her husband and other family and friends again.  I'm sad that my future children will not have gotten to know their Great Great Grandmother, but I am also fortunate that we have such a young family that they will get to know their Great great aunts and uncles, their great aunts and uncles, their massive amounts of cousins, their great grandparents and their grandparents.  Thank you Great Grandma Holt for the memories, we love you and will miss you.

Euros, fiction writing, contracts!!

More House:

Wow another week down, its getting closer to the construction of the house getting built. Hopefully this weekend we will get to actually go pick out everything we need. We did start looking up appliances and it seems that our kitchen will have stainless steal, but we have decided that we will spend a bulk of our money in the kitchen in the beginning. So there haven't been any major changes in the house progress.

Fiction Writing:

Those that are closest to me and know that I have always fancied myself a writer knows that the past few years have been a struggle for me to come up with ideas, to pursue ideas and to feel confident in sharing my writings. I haven't really felt like I could do it again, but I have been checking out Craig's list adds and found an e-magazine I am thinking about submitting to, it is all very exciting. It has been a long struggle to feel like I can write creatively again but I'm hoping that because of the place I'm in at this point in my life will help with that.

I have decided that I am going to try to write a bit every day, not to pressure myself but to keep up the thoughts. There are a select few I will share my rough drafts with, mainly writing friends. More than likely I will write under a pseudonym so if and when I start getting any publishing's I will keep those that want posted. Be warned that my writing style vary from romance, to gritty crime so if it is not your cup of tea I completely understand. So if anyone has any ideas or thoughts let me know. Wish me luck!

I don't have much more to write tonight nothing is really exciting other than Michael has counted up his Euros and showed me what each coin looks like (I feigned interest), but I'm sure he knows that. Well I guess it is time to be off to bed.

Like I said those that I want to read my drafts or those that are interested let me know all I ask is understand that these are thoughts of my imagination it is not how I may or may not truly feel but it is just something to be entertaining.

Good night all

Broken toes, houses built to order, and sniffling colds.

Wow what a grand few weeks we have had. Work slowed a bit but has picked back up. I joined Relay for Life in Cedar Park/Leander and it has been great, I am really looking forward to this year. Everything was smooth sailing and then universe decided that we were doing to good so it was time to throw us a curve ball, or 3 but still we are thankful.

The attack of sniffling cold, crazy yoga stretches, Elm trees, and coffee tables:

The first icky thing was my allergies got so bad that I have to stay home from work and go to the doctor, they gave me steroids that helped so much. It seemed like 2 weeks later Michael was sick so he went to the doctor feeling bad, they told him it was just a virus. Well for the next few weeks it seemed like he could not feel better. In that time I was doing silly yoga and hurt my back and that kept me home from work for a week. Just as that started getting better Michael had to go back to the doctor, and was told he had an upper respiratory infection, and had probably had one for awhile. Well that night when he was coming home I had double bolted the door. In a haste to get up and open it for him the coffee table viciously attacked me, and a slew of cuss words came out (sorry about that neighbors). Well I thought I had just stubbed my toe but NO that would be to typical. I had to go visit the doctor (at the same after hours clinic that Michael went to none the less) and got x-rayed. Fortunately I didn't do to much damage but I did break the upper part of my pinky toe, it was bad enough that they had to put me in a walking (moon) boot. See picture above. Now that things are calming down I have been attacked by the sniffles so cold medicine it is, I guess the only good thing is that Michael is out of town so we can't pass the yuckiness back and forth. Now on to the next adventure.

Houses, earnest money, down payments, and more:

On March 3, 2012 Michael and I went looking for houses. At the time we were just looking and not set on buying. We had been looking on-line and settled on about 15 houses we wanted to look at, all resales. That day we looked at a few houses and just didn't love the house or the location. Our Realtor (Bless her heart) had surgery before this day so she sent a replacement in. Nancy was kind enough to bare with our "House Hunting Virginity" and indecisiveness. Nancy decided to show us a BRAND NEW neighborhood that was doing Built to Order homes. The builder was KB Homes and I will be honest I wasn't thrilled at first (heard good and bad things). But the homes were in our price range so why not. We came to the offices and the model homes were amazing (but then again they always are). We looked about at the homes and floor plans, and heard all of the pitches. There were some really good things that caught our attention, brand new, warranty and 4 sided masonry (that means bricks or stone on all four sides). We thought about it but left not thinking we were going to be doing anything. So we went got gas, talked and asked each other could we walk away from this and made the decision that we could not. So we drove back to "Crystal Crossing" and discussed numbers and money. We had at this point been prequalified for a good loan amount and it would cover the house. So we decided to do it, shaking hands and all we signed the buyer agreement to put money down (earnest money) to take our plot off the market. The plot is in a cul-de-sac, and the neighborhood has a turn about so that will minimize the amount of traffic through there. After that we went to the "studio" to get some information about what we wanted to upgrade.

Right now where we stand is getting paperwork in for our loan authorization, going to the studio to do our first picks for the inside and outside of the house. We will then get our final loan number and get that authorized. Construction will start, and every week we can see our new home. This is a breath taking experience and amazing.

I have to say that where we are at is a dream come true to me. As cliche as it sounds I can not imagine anything more--except maybe kids now that we have this big new house :). I have to say where I am today is because of my family...love you all. I will keep everyone updated on the progress. But we are very excited about our new home. The picture up top is our lot with a side view of the neighbors home.